'Ben' Ve Mekânsız 'Öteki-Ben' Çatışmasında Ortaya Çıkan Sanatsal Gel-Gitler

Abstract

The subject is defined as the individual positioned opposed to the object and the conveyor of consciousness (Cevizci, 2011, s. 344). In order to clearly define what subject is or any concept, an opposite concept is required. The opposing concepts complement each other. In order for the subject to exist, this opposition finds its response in the object. In other words, the opposite of the subject is the object. The self is formed when the subjects look at the object to identify themselves. At the same time, through their self they acquire an identity in society. Freud explains the stages of this formation with ego-ideal and ideal-ego concepts. The ideal-ego defines ‘me’ as the subject which they desire to become, whereas the ego-ideal is subject’s identification with the place where they are being observed and look at their self (Žižek, 2015, s. 121). When the subject enters society, they aspire to return to their imaginative ego. However, society intends the subject to stay in this structure, which Lacan calls the Symbolic order, that has been constructed for them. From this point on, the subject falls into indecisive-ness, thus the other side of “me” emerges within the subject. In this research, this other-me, which is insatiable, unsatisfied and, always remains at a desiring state, is defined as Voracious-me. The dissatisfaction of Voracious-me derives from the unwillingness to belong. The concept of belonging is related to space, in other words being affiliated to a place. If one wants to leave of belonging, then this place must also be displaced. When the con-cepts of space and displacement are examined as such, it is comprehended that; every space is actually reachable, all places are a space and, when the displacement is also de-fined through ‘place’, then displacement must be impossible. Therefore, subject’s Vora-cious-me side, which is always in the desiring state, is continuously positioned where desires displacement. These phenomena have been transferred artistically through ceramic sculpture, installa-tion, drawing, video and photography works. In these works, the subject's staying in-between me and Voracious-me, their tides, desire to leave have been depicted through duality, opposition, limit and movement portrayals. Thus, the act of going not being ma-terialized and the desire for displacement always remaining in the position of desire are conveyed through artistic tides.